841 the condition of the soul

i was once again reminded how idleness, how stagnant-ness is not neutrality. there is no neutral ground. it's either for or against. it's quite annoying to think about because it's tons easier to side with darkness. it'a tons easier to unconsciously side with darkness as well. but once you jump back and reconsider everything, the light is the only place one can go. it's the only place that makes sense in light of not making sense. it's the only place worth pursuing, has meaning, and see the world more clearly. it's the only place where one finds love.



darkness swirls around me,
laughing wicked thoughts,
clawing at my feet.it's so easy to slip
when i'm living this close
to the escarpment of hell.

o lord of life,
draw me closer to the light!
let love become the language
of my heart once again.

translation.

-Steven James in Story, Chapter Venom.

422 there was a time when men were not controlled by the hours and minutes of a clock

unrelated quote: If I'm worth dying for; Yes, this God's worth living for.

As I'm watching some adults play soccer at a field in the park, I was reminded of how fun life can be- all the running and jumping, even diving and falling. It brings me back to when I was a kid, unconstrained by the world and its judging eyes, unrestrained by the laws of man and the demands of respect and decency. just free. innocent. enjoyment. Spring has such nice weather.