441 running without breathing can be quite unsound

time goes awasting when you sit in front of your laptop with no specific aim to go about. it's insane how much time is spent on idling. yet, one still complains on the 1001:1 ratio of workload to time given to accomplish such tasks. it's crazy how the world works. excuse my random ramblings.

375 hee jae is sitting next to me

so i forgot to blog this but last sunday...the 17th of october, i went to chinatown to go to cemc and ate at a chinese restaurant. anyways, to be a boring story short, when we left the restuarant, we were walking and a HEAVY squarish metal sign 12 x 12 inches fell to the floor RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. Literally, if i took another step, i would've gotten hit and seriously injured on the head. it made a huge noise and the owner of the store came out. it was quite an interesting experience but i never thought much about it.

yesterday, went to Local Church near Penn Station. it was really uncomfortable at the beginning but really really good. one guy told me how the idea of their services is to imitate the church in Acts where every member contributes to the body. Any member is given the opportunity to speak and praise in the middle of service and we all learn from each other. Their praise were hymns and they used them as prayers. It was very multi-cultural. Crazy cool experience. Great sharings as well.

225 oktapodi; people these days makes some seriously sick animations and storyline

Aesthetika. we talk design as if it were something purely visual. yet, that is only one-fifth of the total. people tend to identify items so strongly as if it were part of them, almost to the degree where the items identify who they are, their personality or whatnot.

aesthetics is more than sight. it's more than feel. what makes an object lovable and comforting includes the sound it makes, the smell it exhibits, how it tastes. what does a laptop taste like anyways? part of a printer that makes it cool is the sound it makes. no doubt it can get annoying, but there's a comfort factor in there. perhaps it's not intentional when the artist made the design to include that particular inserting paper and sliding ink cartridge noise, but it's nice. without it, it would not be a printer anymore. design is quite an interesting subject, no doubt. i miss my pencil.

204 questions of insanity

it's weird. i have not been reading. i try but i don't. i read every other thing, but not the One.

School's gotten tougher. Quite difficult that i don't wish to write any more about it. Too much mental stress to put into words the terror and worries along with slight excitement yet still worries. What keeps me sane is that I somewhat expected it and know i would've still chosen to take all these classes if I were to go back in time. What keeps me sane is that i do enjoy learning and i believe challenges is what will mold me.

i suppose that was your typical college student entry. i'll try to write something more fascinating next time.

489 maybe it's just because they're asians

So there it is- a declaration of war. I'm quite surprised. It is rather intriguing. I would've written this entry on something else but this clearly overrides anything else at the moment. or maybe not. just that i don't want to think hard to write about something that actually concerns me. I don't wish to spread the news too far cause i do not know how serious this is. i guess this turned out to be a waste of an entry now, like all others.

226 that bus driver just blew past the red light with no regard whatsoever

today was crazy nice weather, at least for those 10 minutes or so that i was outdoor. reminded me of the good old days that never existed but were in my mind regardless. they're like fake memories that became real. very precious stuff.

anyways, i was reminded to breathe. i've known it all along but simply ignored it. ignorance. it's a huge survival skill. i've realized more about this habit of mine. ignorance is generally bad- when a problem arises, most of the time, you can't just ignore it. that's like running away from reality, pretending nothing's up. but that's what we do at times, cause it's easier; it's less painful. i've noticed how i've often confused myself with ignorance and temporary ignorance. temporary ignorance is what i do a lot. there are so many things going on that i can't possibly be effective when there is an unresolved problem. that is why my brain selectively ignores the problem for the duration of solving another problem or action. after i finished whatever else, then i can start figuring out this initial problem again. i think in all the secularism of my thinking, i still believe that it's ultimately God watching over me and giving me peace through tough and stressful situations, clearing my mind of the unnecessary and filling it with creativity and focus, amongst other things.

458 it's as if time really does pass by lot slowly as one ages

Evil is not the opposite of good.
for if were the opposite of good, it would be just as powerful as good.
but i do not believe it to be so.
instead, evil is the distortion of good.
a deviation, a slight corruption, a missed note.
a just-a-tad-lower than intended execution.

that is how evil works.
not by overpowering good, but by corrupting the song one note at a time.
changing a few notes so that the final piece will end up...
entirely different.
self-confidence into pride.
physical attraction into lust.
pleasure into indulgence.
respect into envy.
self-preservation into selfishness.
ambition into greed.

evil is not the opposite of good.
just a tainting of it.

(stolen mainly from Steven James, author of Sailing Between the Stars)