201 maybe i should pick up cooking or baking as a hobby

i realize how much i love excellence. sometimes, i wonder how fate clashes with passion and hard work. for one, i certainly am blessed to be athletic. i do like volleyball more than other sports, though basketball comes really close. yet, i feel like circumstances do not open up for me to excel in volleyball. i have certainly thought about pursuing it regardless but that means i must sacrifice my time and energy on something else. Yet everything else is important to me. i don't see the trade-off being beneficial to society. hence, i do not strive as hard. i still wonder that's wise or not. for the time being, it seems to be so.