489 maybe it's just because they're asians

So there it is- a declaration of war. I'm quite surprised. It is rather intriguing. I would've written this entry on something else but this clearly overrides anything else at the moment. or maybe not. just that i don't want to think hard to write about something that actually concerns me. I don't wish to spread the news too far cause i do not know how serious this is. i guess this turned out to be a waste of an entry now, like all others.

226 that bus driver just blew past the red light with no regard whatsoever

today was crazy nice weather, at least for those 10 minutes or so that i was outdoor. reminded me of the good old days that never existed but were in my mind regardless. they're like fake memories that became real. very precious stuff.

anyways, i was reminded to breathe. i've known it all along but simply ignored it. ignorance. it's a huge survival skill. i've realized more about this habit of mine. ignorance is generally bad- when a problem arises, most of the time, you can't just ignore it. that's like running away from reality, pretending nothing's up. but that's what we do at times, cause it's easier; it's less painful. i've noticed how i've often confused myself with ignorance and temporary ignorance. temporary ignorance is what i do a lot. there are so many things going on that i can't possibly be effective when there is an unresolved problem. that is why my brain selectively ignores the problem for the duration of solving another problem or action. after i finished whatever else, then i can start figuring out this initial problem again. i think in all the secularism of my thinking, i still believe that it's ultimately God watching over me and giving me peace through tough and stressful situations, clearing my mind of the unnecessary and filling it with creativity and focus, amongst other things.

458 it's as if time really does pass by lot slowly as one ages

Evil is not the opposite of good.
for if were the opposite of good, it would be just as powerful as good.
but i do not believe it to be so.
instead, evil is the distortion of good.
a deviation, a slight corruption, a missed note.
a just-a-tad-lower than intended execution.

that is how evil works.
not by overpowering good, but by corrupting the song one note at a time.
changing a few notes so that the final piece will end up...
entirely different.
self-confidence into pride.
physical attraction into lust.
pleasure into indulgence.
respect into envy.
self-preservation into selfishness.
ambition into greed.

evil is not the opposite of good.
just a tainting of it.

(stolen mainly from Steven James, author of Sailing Between the Stars)