g. day 39 the beauty that cannot be described

Today...the air, the chillness, the after-rain...it was beautiful.

f. day 32 the eternal inner murmur

So 4 classes and 2 fellowships, mainly describes the how i spend most of my time, perhaps all my time. Classes involve hw and studying and projects. Fellowships involve sg, lg, church, outreach and random hangouts. Certainly getting to know people more now though so that's cool.

Anyways, something I realized this week was my earthly desire to seek the approval of man. I was hit upon the question of whether heaven excites me or not and to be honest, not really. To keep it short, I pondered why this was the case and realized that I still wish to accomplish something great on this earth- something that will give myself glory- inventing something revolutionary, design something cool, do well in school so others look up to me, etc, not necessarily in a large scale but amongst a decent crowd, this desire to impress and prove my worth. Yet, i'm reminded time and time that my identity rests in Christ. sometimes, it's hard to see, and when we see, to accept.

e. day 27 fifty word literature

so i started a new blog on tumblr, which i agree with yang that it's confusing to use. still have problems with the layout and all but sticking with it for now. (http://fiftywordstory.tumblr.com/)

anyways, school's kicked in quite a bit more now. it's certainly getting more intense, especially the one class that I like most (the one that i am not required to take). started to motivate myself to work hard and to learn more about mat sci outside of what i'm taught in my classes. grad school is for learning after all, and research is more important i'd say, than classes. want to figure out what field i want to do research in as soon as possible and learn all i can so that i can approach professors with more credibility. can't get caught up with getting A+ in class, though i'd love to do so.