it's amazing how normal life feels these past few days. i don't even know how i would explain what i mean. it feels normal yet it's different from my typical day. it's very carefree and relaxed but that's what most of my days are too. it's focused on fun and less on unnecessary worries but it's not like i don't have fun normally. it's not even that i've felt closer to God, which is worry-some for me since that might mean i'm enjoying life simply because it might be that i'm being deceived and too careless. perhaps it's understanding that i'm so blessed with so many awesome people in life and feeling loved, and enjoying time spent with them. but i never care for simply spending good moments with them. i solely wish to grow spiritually with each other. i suppose showing each other love and enjoying time together is part of that, but i feel like there's so much more, though at the same time, i believe i'm complicating things.
what i wanted to say is that this world is amazingly huge and i don't understand everything and i try and i fail and feel bad about it since i can't. to realize that i simply have 0.0000000000001% of the knowledge in the world is quite unresting for me. and even that number is a huge overestimation.
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